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I have no original thoughts to share today except:
If you want to feel loved and cared for by your doctor, visit a sexual health clinic. I have done so three times so far because my vagina keeps whiling (you need to actually be symptomatic, lol), my last visit was yesterday, and yet again, I have felt the most regard for my whole body and mind health.
My favourite question they ask is, 'Are you safe at home?' Aaaaannnnnnnddddd, they don't do it in a tick-box kind of way.
And they really try to tease out if you are depressed or something...if I had the time, I would have cried (I really need to see my friends more – and not superficially).
So, I guess I am a smoker coz he (the doctor) was like, 'You've deadass never smoked at all??' And I was like...I mean, yeah, the odd cigarette here and there when I am drunk, and he put down smoker...the shock!
But I left so satisfied and listened to, and I think my vagina will be okay soon. [Do I overshare? Who cares?... Gonna be a fossil fuel one day, and all this won't matter.]
Unoriginal thoughts
I subscribe to a few feel-good email newsletters. I actually read them, and they, for the most part, spark something good in me.
Below are excerpts (seen in quotation marks) from them and the thoughts they sparked.
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I was, and continue to be, under immense pressure from all sides. I work in a high-pressured job, I co-own a high-pressured enterprise, I have high-stakes relationships, and I have high-pressured responsibilities pressing which, in the last few months, admittedly had me by the neck. I got to July after months of non-stop work and production and mercifully gave myself permission to rest.
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The ugly for you might manifest a little differently. For me, my ugly looks like poor sleep, a short fuse, and overworking myself to the point of physical exhaustion. It looks like, at its extreme, poor prioritization, existential dread, and doubting whether I am living a purposeful life in any case...
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I absolutely feel myself slipping, and it is scary – the triggers:
- Relocation
- Anxiety over a new job and potential performance and previous mistakes
- I am unsure of what I am doing regarding my portfolio and career
- I feel pretty distant from most friends, and I don't like that, or rather I feel bad about that, as I absolutely value my friendships
- I am also anxious about money now – e.g., to change my insurance is just £400.00 alone. Need to buy a revision question bank thing probs another £180, and need to book exams; although that will be later, I'm still anxious. Money and strikes kaha... but got to stay above the water.
I don't think I am doing any toxic coping except for the following:
- Spending money me not have
- Being lazy
- Being on the phone too much
- Avoidance
So significantly toxic... I need to get on my Zoom.
[Someone is talking so loud on their phone in the library, and it's just not fair... they sound elderly, but still not fair.]
The counters.
The intended counters:
- More walking – 5 km a day
- Good meals – big ass salad with lots of protein and water – eat mostly at home – but you can eat out too
- Studying 30 mins a day somehow
- See mentor – soon
- Meet up with supervisor soon
Advice from another email newsletter:
Make post-work fun
- Walk
- Indulge in your fave things (see my last point)
- Clean up
- Read
- See friends
- Write and read more??
Last excerpt...
"Life is short — don't get too caught up in trying to clear your to-do list. There will always be more things on your list than you can manage (even if you fully optimize your life). Spend time with loved ones."
Happy Wednesday, beloveds...modimo o teng e bile o mogolo and o na le rona ka metlha yothe. Xxx
And lastly...(moving like Christianity and threatening you to see the joy and beauty of life or else... )
Postscript
The email newsletters:
- Optimise Me by Renne
- Slow growth
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