Ease My Troublin' Mind

Hello,

Ummmm where do I even start ? First of all, I am sorry about the lack of consistency. We really went from about four posts a month to well you know. I am not even mad at myself, it really do be like that sometimes . 

I follow this other blogger and every so often, she would have a post titled the wind down. On there she'd just touch base with us (her readers) and tell us what is happening, what she is listening to and the like. That is almost the format I follow for most of my 'okay let us sit down and reflect' journal entries, except the categories go something like; love, money, career, religion and miscellaneous. Surprise surprise, I journal a lot; on here but less seriously, on my notes app and well on my proper journal journal. I just always feel like things are less tormenting when I write them down. I like remembering what I felt like at one point in time, journaling gives me that, as well as photos and videos. Anyway, I am going to attempt the wind down format for this post. Here goes...

Confession: I kind of lie a lot, and big lies as well, I can't expect myself to confess anything of significance that is true. But I will think of something. 

This past weekend: LONDON BABY!!! London is my favourite city ever!! I love getting into Euston by train and just feeling...alive!! I love Naledi's house, I love their food and their company. We went out on Friday, I remember singing 'Sweet Dreams - Eurythmics' to my heart's content. It was amazing! I love life when vibes are on a hundred! Then the sports day, then I went bowling for the first time, I actually thought I'd suck at it. Turns out I am really good at it. I love alcohol, recurring theme. I love the love I get from my friends. Honestly honestly, the laughs, the light hearted jabs, the heart to hearts, the affirmations; it is always so heartwarming. I think I want to live in London, just for a year, for my own self, to just feel what I think I'd feel whilst living in London. In short, my weekend was beyond perfect. 

Being outside makes me happy :)

Currently loving: Cherry tomatoes. I am eating a lot more salads now and cherry tomatoes are the Beyonce of vegetables! Honestly. 

Terrified: Of a whole lot of things right now. My new job still scares me, it is too serious...and that some of my poor choices might come and bite me in the ass, sigh. 

Encouraged: (I thought this had a nice touch to it.) To be more honest, with myself and in my dealings. And to be more proactive rather than reactive. I am honestly on an upward curve (I hope anyway). And if I fail at all that, just to drink water, eat my salads and just smile. 

One last thing: Just for my own ego. My consultant thanked me. Like a whole 'thank you'. I had the most complex patient this week and the jobs I needed to do for her were probably at the level of senior medical officer and I handled it really well, that made my day. 

The power of London, and my hair is really that ghel... we have come a long way <3

That is it for now. Take care of yourselves and be kind!!

Love and light 

xxx

PS; Cam's wind-downs (http://www.camwithlove.com/the-wind-down-1/)